4.2.08

Coward of the Dusk/Noble of the Dawn.

fallacy at sea.




    a fear of
     water

is keeping me from reaching salvation.
    waiting
    for this iceberg
to finally submerge so i can swim.
    the gods are 
     circling overhead
and i'm not sure if i am prey to them.

~we were cast into the sea.
the only chance for safety
was the ship that past
when we had left
to find some rest; SOUNDLY SLEEPING
dreaming of the coast 
where home we long for most
is waiting countless miles away
guarded by the holy ghost.~

    fighting all my
    nerves and 
stealing out like ravaged/stranded thieves.
    the distance
    was alluring 
and often appeared closer within reach.
    but i'm certain
    that someday
we will find ourselves at peace if we believe.

...i open my eyes to find that i've been slowly sinking deep into the fallacy.
[and still searching for that ship which drifted alee in my dormancy.]

*

the beast and the burden
the warden will feast
but first you must lure in
the chief who will speak
and eat while enduring
the least of his worries.
the priest wept in mourning,
the sheep left without warning
& we'll keep the peace for the only ones deserving.

*

_-_-_-> HEAVED into the sTreeTs.
where ferocity breeds so easily.
i act out against <-_-_-_
the wish of he who watches over me.

"i've 
known the burdens of guilt
and the tides of ill will!
i've severed my sins
as a means to an 
end."

I AM MY FATHERS' SON
and i drink from the holiest wells of water.
inside our prison cells,
we sing into the midnight hour.

much like the proverbial hands of the time.
we keep thinking For--->Ward
to a life outside these [ guarded ] | walls |
that fate will surely decide For Us.

*

AN exchange of pleasantries
ON the backend of a lunar cycle.(cycle.cycle.cycle.cycle.cycle...)           j.m.

*

THRIVING PRIDE RIDING HIGH ! ! ! <on the white horseback of dreams.>

: : : she sat me down to speak about what courtship was really meant to be.

I AM THE ONE UP AT DAWN ! ! ! <while the rest of the home remains asleep.>

: : : now we've come to learn that what we see is not what we believe.

*

04:25/04:26 = 




yet again you found me in my sleep.


i woke up thinking you were next to me
and immediately felt complete.


but soon i discovered the desolate truth;
that in this world…
i'm merely a Q without a (yo)U.

*

if you were the grey swan
i would keep you for my own
and starve the world of your beauty.

you always come along
with the dawn of the sun
and i'm the one left
in the wake of your mourning.


3.1.07

...ⓞɲ|ƴ Րạїƞєȡ.

i've never beheld her quite so low.
a cloud of doubt perpetually perches alone.
couldn't seem to get enough,
she searches above for hope in woe.

though much of which is made in haste,
the king in heat mustn't hesitate.
a balance bestowed amongst belief of faith
breeds the life she was bound to lead.

concede before we both might drown
by the weight of the head that carries the crown.
And in the wake of unrefined pride,
the tide takes hostage our only fortune to survive.

rise from the ocean floor, hands raised overhead.
  • DANCE!
  • LOVE!

with me, come dance, love.

together, we gasp for life by the waters' side.
wide eyed assured, not ever to forfeit the fight.
i have found and blessed her in the aura of ardor.
now we relish the solace that amuses the night.

- -


he wanders these dismal streets guided by whim,
passing the painted faces of expression on pedestrians.  (they smirk.)
who am i who is not like him?
who be this enigma?  (he lurks.)

they say he casts shadows where land is dark
yet he harbors the heart of the meadowlark.
unconventional by nature,
intuitive intentions deemed precariously obscure.

_none of the townsfolk pay a single mind.
t_hey wish nothing more than to follow in_line.
ti_s much easier to cast him------------> [aside]
rat_her than take the time to rationalize.

so he continues step by step and year after year.
in quest for the love he longs to draw near.
but further the illusion persists to drift
and along with it, his wish to coexist.


- -







oh, Our Lady of Fátima...
your secrets counsel our supple souls.
i pray by the rosary each day
to ward the sins of Evils' prey.


- - 




 (youbrush streaks of diamonds through your hair.
+ (i) finger-paint strokes of gold into the night…
= …(we) hear the wind whistle amidst the air.

the crystal light *shines* from the brightesT stars' earthly *glow.*
our kiss *illuminates* the sky like the sun wishes it could *show.*

||  we close our eyes to find our lives are playing as one on t.v.  ||                                   
||  the actors were cast when the director asked if anyone had foreseen this dream.  ||
||  it remains a mystery how the rivers and valleys ever did come to be...  ||           
||  or why the broken heart lies as still as the stagnant sea.  ||                 

maybe this world was made for infinite possibilities of similes.  

11.7.03

.הצורך בשינוי.










change is made with further need of innovation.
everyone reserves the right to sustain the fight.

                                      - -appetite for nepotism.  (09;09;09)




no longer nullified by time.


  • a change of sight.
  • a chance to take and state:
REALIZE!

i've been lulled into the falsehood of life; disguised.
As a boy, i mettled and wandered.
i tampered and squandered my own dreams
as a means to cease any form of cerebral relief.
my thoughts were out of reach context.
i continuously second guessed myself out of achieving my best
and lefT The resT of my mind to remain suppressed.

"so, has this become your obsession?"
"no, this has become my acceptance."

and again i opine…
i am no longer nullified by the premise of time.






Much like the proverbial banter
we exchange in passing; amongst,
the waVes of WordS spread through the streets
like a {|'storm'|} or W_i_l_d stampede.


I am fixed in a pose
to be put on show
but nobody is filling the seats.
The curtains are rising
and the blinding lights shine
on the one who suffers the heat.

(( Tell me more of your studies
and the knowledge abroad.
Let me in on the secrets behind the facade. ))


[[ Your tracks were traced and erased 
by the same fingertips that stood at a standstill
when the world went up in an arms' race. ]]


we yearn to proclaim(!) and(&) let the sound carry to the heaVens.
as our voices begin to strain(,) we're reminded never to give in(.)
the faith resides within.



30.10.99

río de la mente.


-----> stagnant.

a proper persuasion to impulsively imply
a spectacular lack of repercussions.

response. <------



i was put on a shelf
only kept to myself.
i forgot how to love
and forgot who i was.
but since i met you it's like
i'm learning all over again.
*(srsly?…c'mon.)

FINE!!

Horror heard from the howls of horns
slaying wind in the night.
Darkness descends deep in the dwellers
delusion to survive.
Yearning for the thirst of a thousand mens' tries
set aflame by the fire that which it burns to signify
we will all make it out alive.
we will all make it out alive.
we won't all make it out alive.
BETTER?!
*(meh.)





____stand before the iron gates
with will and wishes to escape
____long since forth you've settled here;
the place in which you have come to fear.
____beneath the vultures overhead;
the water source in a canyon bed
____leads the way back to your home
where you lay dreaming in repose.


friends and foes alike:
HOLD TIGHT!
currently, the writer of the storys' ending is taking a strike.
he will not stand for the characters lack of development.
he refuses the use of present-day relevance.
dream restlessly if you must
but sleep soundly in the trust
that the consecutive installment
will be complete by the coming dusk.



my voice has been 
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - .Ϙ.- - - -
                                     intercepted.




I GET IT, I GET IT !!!
you're untamable, you're unconventional, you are a force to be reckoned with.
a maverick; unfit to commit to feeble social politics.
so you forfeit to mimesis.

and i choose to have no part in it.